Houses & History

Well, Damon and I have once again been house-shopping! :) I LOVE looking at houses to find the perfect one-- in the perfect neighborhood!! I know that it will never be PERFECT, but it will be perfect for us!! :) We found a super cute one that I could totally see us in!! I think about baby's rooms and little kiddos growing up, having friends over... EVERYTHING!! It is all just perfecto! :) Please pray for us as we move forward... that everything would come together if this is the house that God has for us!

It has been really hard lately for me, because I feel like all my friends are getting pregnant... and I have never wanted anything more than to be a mom. I am struggline with a little bit of jealousy! I suppose it is kind of how you feel when you are single and all your friends are getting married... though I never felt that one because I was the first pretty much... But that is another reason I think I struggle with it... because we have been married longer, so you think we would be in that place already!! Damon keeps telling me that I need to quit comparing myself to "everyone else", but that is hard to do!!!! With that said, I know that right now is not the time. Damon is not ready and even though I think I am, I know that there are some things that I would like to have done before we start this process of starting a family. I know it changes everything!! However, there is a part of me that wonders if I have enough faith in God's timing to just go off birth control and see what the Lord has planned... Is that just being careless though? I don't know... I always think about it...I mean, I would never do that without talking to Damon first and knowing that there would be a higher risk involved, but if God wants us to have a baby, who are we to stop that from happening!! Sometimes, I just wish that finances would be taken care of... that would make the decision a no-brainer!! But I know that finances are a reality and I definitely want to bring our children up in a home that we are able to provide everything they need... but not everything they want!!! :) Anyways, you can pray for that as well... So many decisions...

You know, I was thinking a lot about what we learned on Sunday in FSM. Dr. Joey Dodson (I think that was his name) talked about how parts of the Bible do not make sense if you don't know the actual history of what was going on during that time period! I thought about that a lot in college because in a class I took we actually had to look at it, but I really had not thought much about it since then... but it is soo true!! I mean, if you don't know what the Roman Empire was like, the fact that Barnabas was taken off the cross and Christ was put on... means so much less... But when you realize just how "just" the Romans were during that period... You realize just what it meant that Barnabas was released! I think I may invest in a new commentary... The Bible really is so much more interesting when you look at it from a historical standpoint! It explains so much!! Just a thought...

Well, I think I best run off to bed about now... It has been a long day! Good night!